I never imagined my life the way it is now as a kid growing up. I had a set plan for my life that I’d imagined way back as a 10 year old and I was quite keen on seeing it through. I would graduate from college, follow it up with an MBA, get a good job abroad so that I can enjoy living by myself for a while and then maybe or maybe not, get married.

I’m not telling you my life story here; we’ll leave that for another day. But I just want to emphasize on the fact that if you’re reading this, you know my life didn’t turn out according to my plan. Instead of an MBA, I ran ahead of plan and pursued an MSc. In Finance. Instead of that job abroad, I’m sitting at my parent’s home, writing on my blog, as I prepare for my wedding that is in less than 3 months.

Up until my second year of college, THE plan was still active in my mind. However, sometimes, life has a plan of its own for you and I didn’t realize how I drifted into what life had planned for me. The cushy world of college was a far cry from real life. What followed was a series of ups and downs and a lot of tears and somewhere along the way, I felt lost.

We all go through times in our lives that are difficult beyond our perspective. We all feel like giving up or at least taking a break from all that is bearing us down. And the key thing to remember is just that – We are ALL going through it together. It may seem like someone’s life is easier than ours, but its only cause they know how to put up a better show. The darkness you feel at this time can be debilitating and it’s easy to loose your way in this situation. At one point of time, so did I. But the only thing I can encourage you to do, is to seek help from someone you trust. I did that and I am much better for it. I was scared to talk to anyone about how I felt and more so, I felt that no one would understand what I was going through. But your struggles need not be just your own. Trust me when I say this, there are people who want to be by your side and help you kick out the emptiness. And no, it does not mean that you are weak because you sought help. Seeking help and sharing your emotions with someone is a brave act and not everyone has the courage to do that. I sought help and I got a tremendous amount of love. You can too.

In the end, I realized that my journey actually got me to the place that I want to be. I found that my dreams were based on the idea of what a good life should be instead of what I needed from mine. I found that living in a large, happy family was more fun than living by myself and that working as a full time blogger was more rewarding in terms of finding myself than my regular job. I discovered my personal likes and dislikes to a degree I never knew I had and I grew emotionally overnight.

What I am trying to say here is that it’s okay to falter and to change your plans every once in a while. Everything that happens to you, whether good or bad, happens for a reason and teaches you a lesson. If you look at life as series of lessons that lead the way to self-discovery and ultimately self-improvement, you will find that the darkness is much easier to leave behind.

Take a look below at how my process of self discovery is panning out –

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“You have to find what sparks a light in you

so that you in our own way

can illuminate the world”

– Oprah Winfrey

Outfit Details:

Blue Cape – Apichaya Clothing 

White camisole – Anomaly

Jeans – Zara India

Boots – Jabong.com

Necklace worn as a bracelet – Amethyst by Rahul Popli

Clutch – Roberto Cavalli

Necklace and Hair Accessory – Lajpat Nagar Market

Picture Credits – Asutosh Bansal (@asutoshbansal)