So, it has been four days since I have left my job as a Brand Consultant.

This is it, this is the time i was always looking for. Time on my own. To finally figure out what I want to do in my life. I have done a series of things based on what I believed I should be doing and none of them made me really happy. I hated the thought of working for someone else.

See, I have always been aware that I have the potential to do something on my own. Working to fulfil someone else’s dreams just does not seem fair to me when I can work towards fulfilling mine. But here’s the catch – what are my dreams? Should I not have figured them out by now? I’m well into my twenties (mid – twenties soon) and most people at my age are doing pretty well for themselves.

So now I sit at home, in my blanket, with the TV on in the background, reading the Game of Thrones series (I’m on the 4th book by the way), trying to take some time off so I can figure out what I really want to do with my life.

However, it strikes me then (mind you – all of this is what is going on in my head at the moment), all this time that I spend sitting here, whiling away, staring at the screen, is not really helping me figure out anything. This is just an excuse for me to be lazy.There are a few things that I did figure out though –

First of all, I need to stop comparing myself to anyone else on this planet (key to success – as my mother puts it).  Everyone on this planet is struggling with his/her own issues and as long as we continue to put up a brave face and not let any of our struggles push us down, we shall continue to find our way.

Second – Life is a journey (as cliched as it sounds) and I will have to learn to enjoy this ‘journey’ with all its highs and lows ’cause the end is not what matters, it’s what I learn along the way and I need to change my focus.

Third – I have to give in to my feelings. Let them take over my system once in a while. That is how I will truly know what makes me happy and what I really want to do. Controlling my emotions and reining them in is an important skill I must know so I can use it when necessary. But learning to let them free at times is equally important.