The Mirror Effect
I see myself through your eyes, my reflection in your gaze. I see myself as the person you see me.
I’d spent years of my life, criticizing and picking faults in myself, never allowing for a single imperfection. I wanted to be perfect, that was the only solution to finding love, of course. All that hard work though? It takes a toll on you. Putting yourself down constantly can be a strenuous task and after a while, I had reached a point where loathing myself was the only option left. I had done exactly the opposite of what I wanted to do. Somehow this cycle of nitpicking and loathing had become so inherent in my system that I could see no way out of it. I convinced myself that I did not deserve half the things that any normal person would because I wasn’t good enough, or cause I wasn’t working hard enough for it. Have you seen the competition out there? It’s difficult to survive in the real world unless you’re the best and I wanted to leave no stone unturned to become the best. I had to be the best at everything. It was never enough.
Unfortunately, it took me a while to realize that I had picked the wrong path to my destination and guess what? My destination was a little skewed too. I’d reached a point where I was so messed up that I saw no way out. The cloud of confusion and loathing that surrounded me was so dense that it was difficult to see the light out there. Till the day you came along.
You saw through me in an instant. You held me when I was at my weakest and when I looked into your eyes, I saw myself, as you saw me. You showed me hope like no other and a love like never before. It took a while, but you helped me to start loving myself. Gradually all the broken pieces started to glue themselves together and I found a person inside me that I wanted to love. A person who saw her imperfections and started to appreciate them. These imperfections of mine set me apart from the others and these are what made me unique. As my love for myself grew, I realized that I could love others around me a little more as well. I had started to appreciate their imperfections instead of judging them by my high standards. For the first time since I could remember, I was happy and I had you to thank for all of it. Seeing myself through your eyes made me realize what I am capable of and it helped me find the confidence in myself to become that person. I still struggle at times, but I’m in a better position to handle myself. No, I’m not dependent on anyone. I have grown into my own person and I have just you to thank for it.
Sometimes one needs a little help in life and there is no shame in letting someone be there for you. Letting someone into your life can be a blessing in many ways.
Outfit Details –
Dress- H&M India
Jacket – Koovs.com
Shoes – Aldo Dubai
Hat – Goa
Bag – Coach
Necklace – Khan Market, Delhi
Make up – Lancôme
Bracelet – Eurumme